Ever have one of those days? I'm having one of those days. It's Monday and I'm wondering if there's a universal shoot-me sign that I'm completely unaware of. I hadn't been feeling well for a few days and then my partner for this display project decides to come in today and ask what to do, disregarding any previous plans. I am not one for "well I feel sorta maybe" when it comes to projects. I don't do "adequate" or "good enough." Yes, yes your GPA and work ethic and all that are higher than mine sweety but I was offering to do the parts of the display that take up time more than anything else, which you said you didn't have. I don't make this offer lightly either, you bitch. We could actually still do the steampunk theme but yes I see you're busy. Then stop bitching about it. Heck, I don't even see your grounds for bitching. I was the one making up the plans for the previous display and I asked you about that weeks ago but you kept saying later. It's people like this who drive me completely insane and up the wall.

It was really really tempting to start giving her attitude back and cutting off the exits as she was doing but I guess in ways the workforce did me some good was that I learnt to curb my anger in physical labour. Lots of physical labour. In other words, there's not a speck of snow on my driveway because I chipped away all the frozen ice and snow off. For anyone's who ever had to do that for long periods of time, they'll know it's not easy nor is it light work. I'm still pissed but I'm less inclined to put something into her drink that will make her sleep permanently.

Wow it's been a long time since I've updated in here. But stuff happens and I tend to abandon accounts (I'm still very faithful to my FFN account but that's the only one I've remained faithful with, if you don't count affairs with other sites). I passed my first semester of college so I'm happy. Avatar is back and I'm happy. And Genbu Kaiden is still stable and on-going, and yes that makes me happy.

The Avatar is mostly ♥ being a Canadian since we're getting the episodes faster and I no longer need to download them. Of course, what's making my day today is Gossip Girl. I swear the show is like popcorn, highly addicting. My faith in Canadian channels has been restored and believe me, after YTV's Keep It Weird campaign, that's a long way to climb back up.

More specifically, I've gotten Silver Light done. In the end, I just said fuck SQL I'm done arguing with you since the CSS has been doing that since day one and I really wanted to get Silver Light back up before the end of this year. Since a number of other archives online still stay with just the listings with no form of other categorization, I'll stick with that till I can get SQL to agree with me. Which will be after the CSS agrees with me since I've been drilled from the earliest days of web design to make a site cross-browser cross-resolution viewable. If I wasn't well, Silver Light wouldn't have been on hiatus for such a long time. Of course, that wasn't the only other problem as I went through a dozen other layouts before I tossed each of them out.

Mind you, in some cases, I don't see what my rush was for since the number of good fics hasn't gone up significantly since the last time I checked the Genbu Kaiden section of FFN. I had forgotten what bad fanfiction could read like and some of the ones in GK, despite being so small are rather horrid (yes I am referring to Selene Luna, ladyshiny ). In any case, there's still less than fifty fics in the archive in the end because no matter how slack some of the guidelines are, they still don't pass. I'm beginning to wonder what they teach kids in schools these days. Anyway, I just need to convert everything to the same CSS sheet before uploading it. And my web design teacher said I wasn't qualified to bypass the course my ass.

I'll be honest. It wasn't as bad as I thought. No more than it is every year. Again I saddled myself with being a guest handler. I take back most things said for last year. I didn't know the meaning of troublesome prima donna till this year. Now, in his defence, the voice actor wasn't a bad person. It was kind of him to ask if I was okay since he noticed I didn't eat much. It's great that he embraces his celebrity status amongst his fans so openly. This, however, doesn't excuse being a prima donna. Especially if being a prima donna makes it difficult for the other guests. Or even a prima donna who gets pouty when the attention's not all on him.

( To a con we go. )

It's been a while since I've posted anything, feelings, events, or otherwise. The main one I'm feeling right now is anger. It's rather disheartening to see one of your first fandoms as nothing more than a fandom of bigots. BIGOTS with all the frump and fruit with it. To say I'm seething is an understatement. I now know why I stay in the Harry Dresden fandom: everyone can accept everyone else's boundaries. I know there is the no fanfiction rule from Anne Bishop but if any of the twits I've been seeing notice anything, they will notice that the section is still up on FFN. Now, if it's such a huge problem for her, you would think it would be gone by now. The version of FFN that most people know of right now, didn't come into play till about 1999-2000. The Dark Jewels Trilogy section (though incorrectly named) has been up since 2001. I will also point out that the Anita Blake section, which went under a couple other names, was up since 1999-2000. It was taken down in November 2002. Given this information, the Anne Bishop section is still up. Why? Hmmm? Tell me, oh tell me, why? About half of the imbeciles I've heard say they're going to report and given that I've written to her myself before, she does reply back and rather quickly too I might add. So it would be safe to say by now that a number of her overzealous fans have emailed to her about it yet, six years have passed without so much as a blip on radar screen. Six years, more than half a decade. I'm pretty sure a number of emails were sent to the administration of FFN. Yet nothing's been done. It's still there. So unless there's something that has insulted Anne Bishop enough to personally ask that section to be removed, that section is pretty much embedded into into the site. I was wondering earlier this month why I wasn't part of any Anne Bishop/BJS (Black Jewels Saga as there are now more than three books) LJ group. My memory rushed back at a spectacular speed within the last hour of why. For all the talk of maturity, there seems to be a lack in any in those LJ groups.

John Inman, the actor for Mr. Humphries in Are You Being Served?, has passed away at the age of 71 today at 6:30AM. Farewell and my condolences to his husband Mr. Lynch. From all the times I've seen him on Are You Being Served? to the interviews and photographs of his life, he was always so vibrant and alive as that's how he will be remembered. Rest in peace as you are free.

As promised though, technically I'm a week late since I said I would have it posted by last Friday. I blame my stupid cold now turned cough.

Stolen from ladyshiny:

( Holiday Wishlist Meme )My Holiday Wishlist (prioritized)

1. This CD
2. Stuff from my Chapters wishlist (start with media then work to books)
3. Ship bashings to stop. You don't like a pairing fine. But bashing won't kill it so stop trying.
4. A gift certificate from this place
5. A better job, preferably office clerking
6. Some inspiration that will get me to finish a multi-chaptered fic (I have no idea what got SE going but whatever did it, I want it back)
7. Bernard Callebaut chocolates in the variety box
8. More time to finish projects
9. Another trip to Asia but at a slower pace (yeah! I think I'm getting over what beginnings I was having of agoraphobia!
10. A chance to see the ancient world exhibit in Calgary.

There. It's done and don't say I didn't help this year.

There are days I really wonder why I bother? There are reasons why I could never become a nun of any following on one basis: I lack patience and tolerence. Mostly tolerence for idiocy. Okay, before I go any further, no this isn't the meme I promised you two. I just needed a place to rant about stupidity and I can type faster than I can handwrite this one.
Again, I listened to another WEFA podcast. On the season two finale. Was it any better? Do I need to answer that one or should it be obvious? Yeah, it was that bad. Okay, I get the point. You two don't like Zutara. Fine, get over it and get on with it. But first, a little research wouldn't hurt. Heck, even Wiki has some decent information on chakras. You would even have a good footing on chakras if you watched Naruto. But no, that's too much to ask for. As for lighting and firebending...are those people that idiotic? Don't answer that one. As for metal and earth, oh for the love of ___, again, research wouldn't hurt. Heck, staying awake during science class would do it too. At this rate, I hope Katara ends up with some nice boy in the Southern Water Tribe whom she hasn't seen for years so both sides will bloody shut up. Either that or make something more of the whole Zuko/Aang thing. That ought to shut them up for a good amount of them.

One of these days a fandom will kill me. Right now I bet it will be the Avatar fandom. Not for the show itself. The show is still wonderful. I'm one of the few who bloody ENJOYED the season two finale. So the show is fine. It's the fandom. And at the moment, it's the Podcasts. I would more than love to hear one that doesn't bash. After hearing the WEFA one, I think I beat my past record of having to shut it off so that I can calm down enough to listen some more. Okay, I understand that there will be fans out there who do not like Zutara. Fine, but you do not need to bash it. Heck, I was cringing even more at the bashing of Sokka/Katara. While I might not ship them, I have liked a few stories with them as a couple. Those idiots at WEFA have gotten worse, if that's even possible. Now I can hear them better, which would have been a good thing if they had an intelligent Podcast to show for it.

Okay, if you're going to have character discussion, then do it. I learned more about your lives than the characters during the whole 23 minutes plus the 10 minute pauses in between. And no telling your audience a pairing will not happen is not what I consider a discussion. In fact out of the three things mentioned not discussed about Katara, that was one of them. Yeesh. There are days I wish shipping was banned. Think about it, a fandom with no ship wars of course knowing fans in general, if it's not shipping there will be something else beaten to death. Is it too much to ask for in a Podcast to be an actual analytical discussion? At this point, the answer is probably yes. If you're going to discuss Katara, how about how she's changed from season 1 to season 2? Her views about the Avatar and the world? Her views on Aang and his duty? Her interaction with Sokka? Her waterbending? But no, she's been disintegrated into hair loopies, an average description, and OMGZ SHE WON'T END UP WITH ZUKO OR SOKKA LOLZ.

iRewards stores I will never bash you again. For the rest of the year at least. One, because they brought me that Avatar magazine that was so hard to find. Two, because they delivered my Avatar boxset the day after it was released, which is a lot faster than expected. The site had said 4-6 buisness days but it was shipped Monday night and arrived this afternoon before I got home. Oh and the people were nice at the stores, which is a relief. I already feel self-conscious enough without someone rubbing it in, but this time I met a guy who liked anime. It wasn't until today I realized that I wasn't up with the most popular anime. I've tried both Naruto and Full Metal Alchemist but neither do anything for me, though both the clerk and a friend have told me it gets better past the first chapter. I don't know...I catch Naruto once in a while in the random Shonen Jump issues that I buy and it does nothing for me. Maybe I've finally also became anime-inept as well.

Yesterday I found Fairest by Gail Carson Levine, author of Ella Enchanted, at the Coles near my work, which was a good thing. Still haven't found the time to read it. I had previously bought The Two Princesses of Bamarre. As far as the story goes, it didn't impress me but I kept it because I have a feeling it might be one of those books I understand better after time has past. Fairest was bought mainly because I wanted to return to the world of Ella Enchanted. The blurb on jacket sounds promising, especially once they mentioned Lucinda. There's no telling what that fairy is up to. Must go and squee some more over my new shinies.

Current Mood: bouncy

there is such an emotion for bitchy on LJ. Otherwise I would be screaming bloody insanity. Whoever up there is enjoying yanking my strings, could you please stop now? I'm sure there's someone else up there you wouldn't mind torturing besides me. Today has been full of that many ups and downs.

Current Mood: bitchy

navigate the Internet better than me at this moment. Why? Because I'm still unable to find what I'm looking for: a good resource website for writing Inuyasha fanfiction. I got bitten by a very demanding plot bunny and I need to get it out of my system before I drive someone (mainly myself) insane. I have an adequate amount of IY knowledge in my head but when writing a fanfic, I need more than that. I need to know a character's speech patterns, even small gestures to help me get them IC. These might seem trivial but to me they make a world of difference in how to write and whether the flow will go correctly. For example, there's Inuyasha when I was writing a battle scene many months ago in Ascension. It took several pages of manga and a couple episodes to notice that he only uses Tetseiga in either his right or both hands but never his left so I can safely assume he's right-handed. Came in handy when I had my villian (Kajika) dislocate his right arm so that he couldn't aim properly. Or Miroku's habit of gripping the beads on his hand before he releases them and his wind tunnel. Or the angle the Sango's hand and wrist are in after she turns her Hirakotsu around after catching it. These little details might seem over meticulous but they are vital to me.

Right now, my best resources on hand for writing Kagura is volume 16 (I only own volumes 9, 11, 12, and 16) and the 2nd Inuyasha movie. I wouldn't even place that much hope on the volume 16 either since it's the English translation from Viz which they sometimes get right and sometimes not so much. When it comes to writing I have a weakness when it comes to writing manga. A reason why no GK fanfic could not make it to screen until an anime comes out. Novels are my best strength because it's easier to absorb the character. Anime...well the good news is that I can hear their voices in my head. Bad news is that it's the English translation which might not altogether be correct, though I am starting to get the hang of listening to the tones of Kagura's Japanese voice in the 2nd movie.

That being said maybe this is all pointless because half of the aforementioned plot bunny includes GK. ladyshiny, if you're reading this, yes it's that plot bunny I told you about. I couldn't help it. It grew when I let it drink Kool-Aid (in Ice Blue too).

Current Mood: confused

That is the only sound that I'm making right now at the news of Fushigi Yugi Perfect World Volume 7 coming out in September. My mother just passed me by and is wondering what the heck she gave birth too. Now I'm wondering if there's any point to making a fanfiction contest for Genbu Kaiden. My original intention for making such a contest was to give people something to do in anticipation of the previous release date we heard about (November). Is under a month too little for a fanfiction contest? Or should I just change what the original prompt was (which was what would be your continuation off the last chapter)? Hmmm...something to think about.

Anyway, if my cousin (my favourite one) decides to come to Canada in September, I know what to pester him for. I'm sorely tempted to flood his work email with how to find Perfect World, but I can wait till an actual phone conversation. This is, of course, hoping that Hong Kong will have THIS magazine. There's no guarantee. While I was in Hong Kong, there were several newstands and bookstores that carried a lot of Japanese magazines so I can only hope this one will be too. If it is, then I only have to give money to my mom's relatives each year and then they could just give it to me when they return. I'm already doing this with fabric so I don't see how it would hurt for one magazine especially if I'm paying plus a little extra.

But still, even though it isn't here yet, I'm in love with September: Avatar and GK will both be updated. What isn't there to love? Oh and there's also Bone: One Volume Edition coming out. I loved this comic since I was a kid and reading it in Disney Magazine. And not only that this autumn but Tamora Pierce's new book Terrier will be coming out along with her audio book Melting Stones. Plus a number of my favourite authors are contributing into an anthology called My Big Fat Supernatural Wedding that will be coming out in the fall. I knew there was a reason autumn was my favourite season. And one last thing, Evanescence is finally coming out a with a new CD called The Door Open which comes out around my birthday.

Current Mood: excited

sleeping can lead to finding interesting facts. Such as the voice actor for Meng of Avatar is the same voice actor for Toph. Which leads me to the amusement of the two of them meeting. Jessie Flower would have an entertaining time if the writers had her having rival quarrel between Toph and Meng in season two. And since the A-team is wandering through the Earth Kingdom that wouldn't be too far-fetched.

Uploaded to my userpic limit again. There had been a Fluffymama icon I had wanted to put in but I don't believe I'll do that till later. I think it's because the Oma and Shu icon I made won out. This is what happens when I'm allowed to watch my mother's period TV shows; I start seeing things in connections to my own fandoms.

The next  topic that I wanted to get out of my system for today is LJ-cut due to length. Please keep in mind that this is written in my own personal opinion, regardless of everyone else. I'm not doing interviews here people.

Current Mood: blah

ever try cleaning an entire house in a less than an hour period. Why? Because you'll be exhausted beyond your own comprehension. That being said, two Petit Danone drinkable yogurts (my ultimate comfort food) later were down in less than a minute. Together. My mom's friend's (and old boss') daughter from Japan was scheduled to come over tommorow. To those who know me, yes I was planning on leaving cleaning till tomorrow. Needless to say I had a slight heart attack when I got a phone call on my cell from the daughter. Brain went dead and I rushed cell to mother who also panicked (but in a more pulled together fashion). Then I spent the rest of what little time I had left to clean. People who know me in real life can imagine how I clean and how much of a headless chicken I was being.

Edit: Apparently Mom messed up. She was supposed to come today and leave Thursday. I guess I know where my planning skills came from. I might look like my Dad but a majority of my genes come from my Mom's side. No question about it.

Current Mood: exhausted

make you laugh is usually surprising. Wandering around the internet, I finally came across the anti-zutara, pro-kataang petition that was mentioned a few months back. Now let's look at some stats:

• 257 signatures
• 318 Katara_Zuko community members
• 75 AangxKatara community members, a number being multi-shippers
• 1 Anti-Zutara community member

Current Mood: amused

read all about it. Irony has struck again. Once upon a time and time again, I saw a Warrior Women documentary on a real-life Mulan. Then a couple days ago I read this. Then this morning I watched Warrior Women again, and surprise, surprise, it was the real-life Mulan again. But interestingly enough in her life time, she belonged to the White Lotus society, a rebel group against imperialists. Needless to say, I am easily amused, intrigued, and tempted and yet again distracted from SL.

On SL, I will finish version 2.0 before the end of August. Somehow. I know I said version 3.0, but after sitting down and re-evaluating my situation, version 2.0 it is because at this point I highly doubt we're over 300 fanworks altogether. Therefore, really no point in working in the automated archive software. I just now need to make skins extra pretty so people will be distracted and not notice my laziness time constraints.

Current Mood: amused

and surprisingly, the job wasn't all that bad. Sure I had a few (okay a lot) of mishaps but other than that, being a guest handler (or as some called it, a guest wrangler) was a pretty interesting experience. I got to talk to all the guests, most of them who are voice actors.

Current Mood: exhausted

yet again. This is a rant and a rant not suitable for younger viewers which is why most of this is lj-cutted.

Current Mood: sad

There are times that I can not even begin to describe the irony of my life. And if I ever had to strictly religious, I would find out if there are such gods of irony. Mainly because my life has the most amusing ones. For example, that necklace I killed half the house to find? Well I went to my study to go find a spell for finding one. I'm not seriously devoted into Wicca, I only occasionally dabble and quietly celebrate the holidays. But I still believe in its principles. Anyway, I was looking up the spell when I saw something on the floor beside my foot: my necklace. And right before my finger hit the page I wanted. If this isn't irony, I don't know what is.

Current Mood: chipper

for this rant, I so can't help it but as much as I love Avatar, how is it anime? If you're talking animation, then yes it is but looking over Animethon's schedule, I found Avatar: The Last Airbender on the schedule. For those of you who don't know, Animethon is run by ASAPA (Alberta Society For Asian Popular Arts). Now besides the fact that Avatar is mostly animated in Korea, it's produced and created by Nickelodeon, which as far as I know is an American company. I know Avatar is Asian-inspired but still to be blunt, it's not anime in the sense we're thinking. At this rate, why don't they also put up Teen Titans in the schedule?

Current Mood: curious

with the fact that I'm worrying. If only my computer had a .pdf reader but since it doesn't, I get to wait till it finishes downloading into Elda. I need to email the head of HR tonight to tell her that I might not be part of her department this year since I could possibly be jumping ship to PR. I better get it over with or I'll never email her at this rate. There's too many thing to keep track of when it come to what I've got to do and what I've got going. I swear, if I have a mental breakdown before or during Animethon, someone please tell me "I told you so" so that I won't do anything that stupid ever again. Like leave costumes to the last month, which is an improvement from last year's 24 hours before.

I'm agitated, I'll be honest, I'm really agitated. Why? Too many reasons to count but I will go with my first reason off the top of my head. My computer journal is no longer around. Now to most people that might not mean much. But since Elda's most recent crash, it hasn't hit me till now that over two years worth of journal entries has disappeared. I will admit I don't often read those entries or any journal entries for that matter from my paper journals and even when I do it's only to remember/stimulate a lost line of thought. Past that I don't look at them much less think of past entries. I tried typing in a new .txt file but it just didn't feel the same. Am I just being too picky or is this a logical response? Whatever the reason it makes typing awkward on Elda which is really inconvenient on those days that my hand just isn't up to par with writing in one of my paper journals. I wonder if this a psychological problem. Heck, my doctors know I've got enough of those. I personally don't want another one. I want to be normal and happy. That's it. No bells and whistles in my life.

When I think about it, the future that I want is relatively simple. Become a librarian technician, move to Drumheller, and hopefully get married and have kids. I don't really care about order but that's what I want in my future. Any of my family who knows Canada and sees this (past my mother) will probably think I'm insane for wanting to move to Drumheller. It's quiet, more peaceful and quiet than with what their lives are going with. One of my mother's brother always goes to Las Vegas to gamble and the other migrates from here to Hong Kong as soon as the temperature drops below room temperature. Needless to say, they're not seeking tranquility. One of my cousins (of the two I like) had commented that my home city is a retirement town. And yes he has lived here before, 10 years consecutively. I might as well be the black sheep of my family because I just don't crave that kind of excitement.

Case in point: excitement for me is going to the local big museum. I still need to find a day to renew my annual pass and see the newest exhibits.

And from another person's point of view, technically it shouldn't be difficult for me to start getting a move on. I for one wouldn't mind shelling out a small fortune just so I can see finally what the hell is bloody wrong with me and fix it. And the people from one of the disability services available at my previous secondary education facility thought I was making this up. PAH! For the record, I hate, hate, HATE being sick. Being sick is weak and I do not like being weak so therefore of course I wouldn't like being sick. What did they think? I just decided one day I was going to be depressed? Hell no. Being depressed has taken away things I will never or might not be able to replace. I also dislike not putting a 110% into things I feel passionately about.

Like writing. I have yet to write anything else than the above mediocre piece that I submitted to FFN in January under a different name. I tried rereading my old writings in order to get a feel of what my style was like, I tried reading everyone else's both professional and non, and I've tried the old listen to a song for a songfic. Nothing, nada, nip. I have two Avatar stories begging to be written but at the rate I'm going, I'll be lucky if the stories don't tear the inside of me apart first in an attempt to get out of my imagination.

The other has to with my talents in imagery. Photo manips and layouts are just not coming to me. I'm plucking them out by the nose hair's and still they refuse to come out. I know I have till the 31st but unfortunately I find this depressing that nothing is driving me to do them. It's that spark, that creative flare...it's just not in anything I've been doing for the last couple of years and that's what depressing to me. I'm most happy when I'm most creative.

The third is probably going to make the least sense but please take this from my superstitious side. I've lost yet another necklace and I had a good feeling about it. And it's one of my new ones too. Well the pendant is new but not the chain. Gack, I wish I had one of those people who could make you access your sub-conscious. My conscious mind doesn't seem to have a clue. I must have turned the house upside down six or seven times trying to find it and still I don't see it in my hands. Someone please just eliminate one of these problems already!

Current Mood: anxious

is another joiner in my favourites list of TT episodes. I think it was the battle sequence that did it, especially that cool combination between Starfire and Raven. Oh and the ending with all the TT (both new and old) going against Dr. Light. Yes, he is most definitely going to freak when he sees an army of TT busting him out for one simple bank heist. That being said, I don't think there's any Avatar on this week. According to my satellite's schedule, there's supposed to be a showing at 1:30AM but sometimes there is a showing there and sometimes there isn't. Even if they did, there isn't an episode that I need until

• Chapter 4:  The Warriors of Kyoshi,
  
• Chapter 5: The King of Omashu,
  
• Chapter 7: Winter Solstice part 1-The Spirit World,
  
• Chapter 8: Winter Solstice part 2-Avatar Roku,
• Chapter 15: Bato of the Water Tribe,
• Chapter 18: The Waterbending Master,
• and Chapter 19: The Siege of the North (part 1)

Current Mood: determined

I should be asleep at this hour but am I? Nope. Instead I'm doing some website clean up. A couple of days ago I got more Sanrio mini notebooks so that I could keep track of each of my current sites as well as any future sites I want to put up like Modern Faerie, of which might I add is getting to be more and more of a dream than a reality. But as far as I can tell so far, I've got plenty of time to get that up. I'm hoping to get it up before Holly Black is finished with Ironside. I had entertained making a Zutara fansite a while ago but because of Elda's untimely crash any work I've started is gone. Meh, no major loss really because I remembered not being really happy with the banner I created nor the name of the website.

However, at this moment, I'm taking a half hour break off SL work. I think I'm trying way too hard with this website but unforunately I don't like putting out half-assed efforts when it comes to websites. I'm a lot better of web designer now than I was back when I first started with Geocities. I still have the old pages on Freya's harddrive. But because I'm better, I can't put in the same things I used to because I know it will be crap. So therefore, keep on going with SL till I get it done. Technically I don't have that much to do if I look at the big picture: just have skins, a glossary, and an SQL database by the next update. Out of those, the easiest task would be the glossary, which would make it easier for everyone to understand what the heck is going on. I know that for the majority of the GK fandom uses the Japanese names but I found it difficult at first with the original FY fandom to understand what name was what. Such as Houki, how was I supposed to know that that and Feng-qi were the same name? And because of the splice of Rimudo and Limdo, yeah this should come in handy.

Personally, I never saw why the FY fandom snarks about the use of either version of a name. What's more important here? The name or the plot? I'd go with plot because that's what actually drew people in. That's why if someone submits a fic that's at least checked for the regular grammar and spelling errors with the names from the VIZ version of GK, I will still put it up. It's the content quality I'm more worried about especially since the GK fanfiction world could use some growing *hint hint*.

Current Mood: busy

my sense of timing will amuse me to no end. In Japan, I bought a how to draw manga book by Yu Watase. I can't read it but I was swayed by the pretty GK pictures. Anyway, I figured sooner or later VIZ would translate it but it would be a while since it just came out last December. Bought my latest edition of Shojo Beat today and lo and behold, the first chapter of that how to draw manga book is in there. Mind you, the other time today when my timing was perfect resulted in one of my coworkers turning purple from laughing. Oh and speaking of coworkers, the coworker who I disliked joining us was fired before I got home. Apparently she had a very bad habit of turning up to work...3 hours after her shift is supposed to start. But in return, we got a new girl who I really like. She works hard, gets to work 10 minutes before her shift, and has a great sense of humour. She'll fit in just fine, which is good since the Capital X Klondike Days parade is just around the bend and on that day, all five of us will be working in that tiny space of a counter.

Last year was insanity. I wasn't supposed to work that day but since I only came in once every two weeks to work (three summer jobs at once will do that), there was only one opportunity to check my schedule. So if my manager at the time changed it, I wouldn't know until I got there whether I was working or not, but last year, I think she was relieved that I showed up. There was a line at least three times as long as what we usually have and five girls were barely able to keep up with it. This year, we'll be prepared, I hope. We have been talking about various plans of attack preparation.

On the way back home from Office Depot (seriously my new love, it had everything I needed when it came to office supplies. I now know where to splurge money for a new scanner if I need to. But for now, I got my mini CD-RWs ^_^), I was driving since Mom couldn't after her physiotherapy appointment and I pointed out that tonight had CSI: Las Vegas on. What she said next, put me in a bit of a shock. Now before, she loved CSI: Las Vegas the best, a fact that Julia will not let me forget since I happen to like the spin-offs. However, my mother just stated out of the blue that she now liked CSI: Miami better ("why else would I have watched those DVDs first?") and not only that but she likes Horatio. *feet sticking up in the air* I am surprised that I didn't drive off the road or something. I've heard more negative things than positve when it comes to Horatio Caine, so to hear my mother...my mind just shut down from shock.

Then again, I should have expected it. My mother, despite her Harlequin reading ways, loves boom-boom movies. A new 007 came out? Let's go see it. The third Bourne movie is finally out. We're lining up earlier than usual so I can get the best view of the explosions. So in elementry school when all the kids whine about not being able to see the newest boom-boom movie, my mother's getting ready to take me after school since she can't take my grandma there. My grandmother didn't like boom-boom. She liked period films. So that left me in the way of "hmmm, my daughter likes movies, I want to go to this movie, so I will go taking my daughter with me." What never made sense to me was that she thought me watching DBZ in junior high was too violent. There are days I don't even try to understand my mother.

Anyway, the point I'm trying to make is that all the protagonists of those movies would follow who ever they're after to the ends of the earth, something my mother obviously admires since Horatio Caine has been known to do the same thing. In fact, she quoted to me a scene from an episode where an ex-convict asks Horatio to track down his son because he knows Horatio will keep going just like he had when Horatio had been on his tail.

Given the situation, I am almost, almost, almost, tempted to call my mother a fangirl. BUT allow me to explain why not by saying fangirl and my mother do not correlate. I'm going to be hiding when the third Bourne movie comes out. My mother will be doing the adult version of the SQUEE. Oh dear gods, help us all...

Current Mood: confused

an idea for how to put in the title for SL. Not the most spiffy one, but that's not the point right now: it's getting this done before my attention zones in on something else and decides to abandon SL. At that point, I would have to shoot myself at point blank because I've put too much blood and sweat into SL to abandon it so effortlessly.

My idea is to put it in the left-hand corner of the screen (though I'm still debating whether or not to put an image with the title image or would that be too much) before the string of navigational icons. The only problem is how to make that image not so distracting. Or I could always forgo the image. To have an image or not...I hate decisions like these but there's no way to get around it unless I actually make said logo. Guess I know what I'm going to spend this weekend doing. Well that and to sew my Takiko costume. I got one sleeve partially done but I think I have to redo it again if I want to have the whole thing lined. Damnit!  *headdesk* That's not counting the hakama, the false kimono underneath (since I lack the material to make another complete one) and the purse (of which I still need to find a model or pattern for). And that's also not counting the other costumes I need to do.

Lovely.

Now on the brighter side of things, I got the mini notebooks that I wanted to get so that I could use them for my other websites. Still no Hello Kitty in my collection but I'm wondering if Pekkle and Cinamoroll are improvements. Still need to get pocket-sized CD-RW since the ones from Hong Kong don't work. But that's for tommorow along with getting the latest issue of Shojo Beat that I forgot to get today.

Current Mood: hopeful

and I'm not talking about the TV show either. Again I've lost something (not surprising, annoying but not surprising) and I really need it: my work uniform. I have palpitations about wearing someone else's especially since mine came from a new wrapper. I'm just wondering where I could have put it. Before I left for Asia, I had stuffed my boots, apron, pants, and shirt into one bag to carry it home. Therefore I should have it somewhere but have I found it? Nope. I'm quite sure that I brought it home, so where could I have put it? On another note, where could I have put my Egyptian cartouche pendant? I've found the chain but no pendant

On the bright side, I found my GBA with Pokemon Emerald still intact. Wish I could say the same for my Pokemon Yellow cartridge that is still AWOL and is holding my 151 babies hostage. I can't believe that at my age I still play Pokemon but all I have to say is it's the one game for now that I'm actually good at. Though if a GK game came out for DS, I would actually buy it. Unfortunately the only game that's come out for GK is Kagami no Miko, which was quite disappointing in the fact that it was primarily eye-candy. I'm asking for a game for DS because there are more options in how a game can progress with the touch screen and dual screen technology than on what a GBA runs. On the other hand, some games sound actually better for GBA than for DS, such as this version of an InuYasha game that involved puzzles that never made it to North America. Frankly if I could create a game for GK, I would prefer more problem-solving and roleplaying mini-adventures than eyecandy. By mini-adventures I mean side-track stories from the main storyline. Kind of like filler episodes only in a game. Then we could stop getting the horrible amount of unoriginal OCs coming into games. I swear each time I look into the Nintendo or Sony websites, I will cringe when I see an anime/manga-based game with idealistic (read nightmarish) OC. Come to think of it, I'm actually surprised that for the Naruto games there aren't any OCs. I was kind of expecting it since that had been done for IY (and might I add at least that OC in IY was bearable, almost likable. GK had a glomping option *facepalm*).

There is very little point in asking for an Avatar game as this post would explain. I'm just wondering how they're going to start the game using Haru. Toph I could understand since she'll be starting off with the rest of the gang and she would have probably been one of the options had the game been developed after she was introduced. But Haru? Are they going to start him off in his village or somehow joining the Aang gang? On another note, should I buy the GBA version or the DS version? I've read around the web that both versions would be the same only adapted to each kind of system but which would be better? I am actually considering buying a DS now that they have the DS Lite out, which look more compact and less breakable. One of my concerns for buying the original DS was that the hinges didn't look so secure but that's just me.

Current Mood: thoughtful

the last few hours since I got home on Elda, giving myself a complete facial from exfoliation to masking, and periods of pacing. Have I done anything for SL yet? No. Have I worked on that Zutara fic yet? No. Have I even touched my Takiko costume past mental exertion? Uh...no. So instead of focusing on things that need to be completed, I've spent my entire time at home being frivolous. There are days I really wonder how I made it this far in life and today is one of them. Though on one hand, I could defend that by giving myself a facial, I was preparing my skin for my costume. I'm lazy and I hate sunscreen, so while I was in Asia did one drop of that stuff touch my body? Nope, so of course my skin is going to tan like crazy. Normally this wouldn't bother me but this year, it's different. The colouring of my costume calls for me to keep my paler complexion. Crap. I hate my timing.

Now I didn't figure this out till after I tried on the kimono a couple times. Because of the sandy/beige colour, I look worse in it tanned. Needless to say I am very grateful for Asian skin whitening skincare. There was a line by Elizabeth Arden called Sheer White, so I was able to buy a travel-sized set without my mother going ballistic on me. Like when I mentioned Anna Sui make-up, I swear she was ready to take off my head. "What are you thinking putting that on your face..." My mother highly values the face. In fact, a woman's face is her life. I can understand that belief, I just don't believe in it myself. I'll never mention alternative brands again. According to my mother's laws (I would say rules, but if you knew her like I did, it's laws), anything that is put on your face should have a long, old, established, and impressive lineage. When she said that, I was wondering whether she was describing my future husband or skincare. I was smart enough not to ask; I don't she would have been amused. But as long as I buy most of my make-up and skincare from EA, my mom's worries will be put to rest. Gods if anything ever happened to my face due to me purchasing make-up not of her standards, she'd never let me hear the end of it.

I do understand that all my mom is doing is looking out for my well-being, but there are times, her efforts can be quite annoying and old-fashioned. Like trying to hook me up with a nice Chinese boy who is the son of one of her friends while we were in Hong Kong. Or that time when we were at Denny's and we saw an old classmate of mine-from elementary school.

Current Mood: contemplative

I just cooked something. That didn't burn or end up sloppier than slush. Hell is going to freeze next week. Or not considering I just used Campbell's soup but still in order to eat it you need a stove and water thus cooking. For anyone who knows me personally, messing up using Campbell's is not beyond me. Expected even.

Now past my monthly accomplishment, it turns out with kimono sleeves it could be of either shape. It depends on personal taste and style. Rectangle sleeves it is because I'm not redoing those again. And since I decided to slack off in the last couple of days, I'm really going to have to haul ass on sewing because after the kimono, I still have a hakama to make. From scratch. Why do I do this to myself? Oh and I also have a Tomite costume on the way of which I need to see which one Jules wants. I'm betting she'll want the blue one. A number of people out there will avoid wearing yellow if they could help it and she's one of them.

Saw Kat yesterday whom I haven't seen since high school and last year's Animethon so that was nice. I hope she's there this year, then I can ask her again for her email address since my Hotmail account refuses to relinquish it.

And back to SL, how I hate you. I know I wouldn't be having as much of a problem with you if I gave in and used tables but I won't. From my sketch, I didn't have to worry about body background colour or wallpaper because the four div layers would be covering up the entire page, especially if I use percentages instead of px to measure out what I want. But no, div layers just don't work that way. On another note, there's also a problem with the Rimudo and Takiko skin. Where do I put the title? Before, with my basic, simple layouts, my banner would be on the top of the page and in that banner would be the name of my site but this time do I have such a thing?

No, I don't. Ay yah, *headdesk* why did this detail have to show itself now? But at least I caught it now instead of later, after I finished all three skins. Look on the bright side, just keep looking on the bright side.

Current Mood: awake

This has joined my top 10 and favourites list for Teen Titans episodes. For most of season 5, I've avoided watching anything because of the lack of substance. This episode almost redeemed the entire season for me, almost. Now this episode should have been the pilot especially with the character development. I liked the fact that the writers kept the origins of TT fairly close to the comic book version yet at the same time added a few new twists to the whole story. Mind you most of the characters are unrecognizable by the personalities we've come to known . Beast Boy is self-conscious, Starfire is very aggressive, and Raven is shy. Now I can understand how Beast Boy's and Raven's personalities would have developed in time; they would have became more comfortable with the team as time went on. But for Starfire, I find it hard to believe that all her aggression would have vanished. Some would defend that yes she still has aggression, just look at her when she fights bad guys.

Perhaps it's because of her portrayal for several seasons but I had a hard time equating the Starfire of this episode with the Starfire I've known. Starfire is less naive in this episode, more bitter. A side we haven't seen of her yet. Troq was more hurtful episode while Betrothed just felt a sad sense of duty but neither actually crossed into bitter in my opinion. In a way, it's almost as if Starfire has aged backwards from bitter to innocence. I'm quite aware that in the comic book version Starfire became more human in order to appease DIck Grayson which is probably why I like this TV's series portrayal of her. She's trying to fit in but at the same time, she's rediscovering and regrowing herself for herself. I shall repeat again, this episode should have been the pilot.

End notes? The kiss didn't hurt either and before anyone says anything I will state that I'm a Red-X/Starfire shipper. She did that so that she could speak in English (damn what I wouldn't give to have that kind of ability, physical contact=learn language in 5s) but I still enjoyed it. Doesn't hurt that I find Robin/Starfire cute, I just don't ship it.

All of this being said, we move on to Avatar. What is it with Toph hating? I've seen it on a number of sites now expressions of Toph hating. The first accusation is usually (but not always) "she is a bitch!" All I have to say is, so being direct with someone is being a bitch? Being someone who doesn't do mind games and tells you exactly what's on her mind despite what your current emotions are? I would call her being honest and straightforward. Just like earthbending. Between The Chase and Bitter Work, this is what we've seen of her character.

Current Mood: thoughtful

home, it's good to be back in Canada. You can most definitely tell you're glad to be back home when you literally hug the house. Though I think my mother wonders if the sun in Asia has fried my brain cells when I did that. I've always had some sort of homesickness even if I'm gone for less than a week. This time it must have been stronger since I was away for six weeks. I won't lie to people on this one: my vacation was no vacation. In fact, it sucked. Not to say there weren't a few good points but past that it sucked. Mind you, I do have an edited version of what to say about my vacation that doesn't involve negativity when I'm at work. Somehow I think that might make my manager less annoyed with me. At least I think she's annoyed with me. Apparently shit did hit fans during the time I was gone. Along the lines of one person fired followed by two people quitting. Add in the fact that working in a coffee shop can be quite stressful, especially in the morning, yeah I better be careful around her for now. I might be valuable but I'm still expendable.

That being said, finally figured out something for a Rimudo/Takiko layout. I know I've said that this one would be easy but eh no. It was easy in the aspect of finding graphics but the problem with a popular theme is that it's been done before. You don't want to have a layout that's almost a carbon copy of someone else's. However with GK fansites, almost every site has done a Rimudo/Takiko theme already. That began an elimination of graphics used so that there wouldn't be a risk of any carbon copying. However that also eliminated a number of colour graphics available. And I downright refuse to use any graphics from the video game. So that left the black and white manga. In many ways, I'm glad I was glad to be stuck with that option because now I can actually concentrate more on what I want rather than complementing the colours of a coloured image. Now the problem is figuring how to position the div layers.

My problem with web design is usually the fact that I would like my site to be accommodating. This being said, I would have problems with browsers and resolution. I also would like my site to look the same as much as it can however it is viewed regardless of resolution or browser. Add in the fact that I'm a bit of snob against using tables and frames and you've got problems. Why must I complicate things? Two more weeks till my deadline for updating SL. In that time I'm going to have to get this layout figured out so that I can make the skins as well as upload the new fics I've received permission for AND search for GK fanart so that the fanart section doesn't look so deserted anymore. Oh, and one more thing, there are still the costumes for Animethon.

Is there a cure for procrastination out there?

Current Mood: busy

CD-RW, why are you being a pain? I ask one little favour of you: to back-up Silver Light since you're capable of holding 200MB and my site has yet to reach that limit, so what is the problem? I am toying with the notion that I might have been jipped when I bought you but I prefer to think I got an honest deal. Please start cooperating with me especially since I just finished a skin and would prefer that it isn't killed before use and presentation to the world.

Current Mood: geeky

reasons why this site is god. I've just discovered how to make my pages scrollable without the use of frames. Please forgive me for this outburst but SQUEE! I can be such a dork but in this case I'm proud of my geekiness. One of the people I had contacted in my earlier years of web design had told me that you could have pages scroll without the use of frames. She was also the one who taught me the art of layouts without tables. So now that I have this figured out, my next little buggers are the graphics for the skins I promised. Why did you leave me, muse of graphics? There was a time you couldn't wait to make me work and squashed away everything else just to keep me focused on whatever you inspired. And now you're AWOL.

Wonderful.

Please note the sarcasm.

On the bright side, at least I know what I want for my first two skins, the problem is making them with limited resources. My goal is to give SL its makeover by July 31st. That seems so close by but I meant for it to be that way. If I give myself too much time for something, I'll slack off. Especially since I might end up doing three skins. Apparently the poll I put up on the GK forum finally has a winner: Rimudo & Takiko. I do not mean to sound rude on this one but thank you! An easy one with plenty of resources and a couple that I ship. Now if I run dry trying to think up of a skin for that couple, it will be a sad day indeed. Then again...I haven't been able to write and upload an actual Zutara since I got into Avatar more than half a year ago.

By all means of what's available for GK, technically I shouldn't be having a problem for skins with Tomite or HIkitsu yet I keep pulling out mothballs for them. Not to mention the fact that I've seen them before as part of the FY anime which would give them more dimension ( a physical voice for one) so I should have been able to do those two first but I ended up with Takiko. *sigh* Sometimes I really don't understand how my mind works.

Current Mood: happy

knock you out of commission but they do give you time to think about things that you would usually skim over. Costume work comes to mind. I sew by looking at a model then imitating what I see with thread and cloth. Needless to say this method isn't fool-proof, and needless to mention that I will often come back to find a detail I hadn't noticed before or will find something that shall point out a detail which I will have to research. Case in point: kimonos and the two details driving me out of my mind? On the sleeves, I've noticed in photos that they are rounded off rather than left in a rectangle shape. I've made my Takiko costume based on the manga but I've acquired some fabric from China (this really gorgeous silk) that I intend to make into a real kimono. Therefore, I would prefer not to make a mistake since undoing seams is not my favourite part. Considering GK takes place in 1920s Japan during the Taisho period, it wouldn't be odd for Takiko's kimono to differ from those of today. Problem is that I read somewhere that kimonos haven't changed that much since the Edo period. *headdesk*

Since I'm more making a costume than an actual kimono, I should concentrate more on what I see from GK right? Uh ri-ight, if I didn't see that Watase's characters tend to have rounded sleeve edges. My thoughts are that it would have been annoying having to do that for every frame so perhaps she just skipped that detail. Either that or the angle that she was drawing them from. Either way, must research before resuming to sew on either kimono. Especially since I'm currently redoing the sleeves because of the horrrible stitching the first time around.

The second detail that's causing me to bang my head against the wall in pain (not helping the migraine at the time) was the subject of lining a kimono. I remember at Chapters a couple times I read this book on how to make kimonos and it told me that kimonos were lined while yukatas were not. That's supposed to be the difference between them besides the material they're made of. Question is, how are kimonos lined? Is the cloth folded over so that the lining is made of the same fabric as the rest of the garment? Or is the lining a different colour? In the pictures that I see of Takiko, sometimes the kimono she's wearing underneath matches the cloth I see within the sleeves and sometimes they don't. In a diagram, it was pointed out that the white collar was worn under formal kimonos. But Takiko wears a similiar outfit everyday (I would assume) so that couldn't be it could it? Anyway, depending on what the answer is will determine how much work I have left. If she's really wearing another kimono underneath, then I get to use the leftover fabric I have from lining the sleeves to make a false kimono top so that it looks like I'm wearing two when I'm really only wearing one. If she isn't, that means I get to bleach my old Sango kosode and wear it underneath (welting during Animethon).

On another note on something completely unrelated:

This has just made my month and right before my birthday *hint* universe *hint*.

That makes both the video game AND the boxset are scheduled to come out before my birthday.
Now if only they would come out with the soundtrack already.
Yep, if I had any doubts about my obsession, I can just throw them into the outbox now. Even InuYasha didn't have me this crazy.

Current Mood: contemplative

I am actually happy that my current obsessions have fans who are mature writers. Not so much in GK (considering the fanfiction sect is a cemetary and believe me I should know) but in Avatar. Why I'm actually happy? Because it makes me think back to the quality of my own works. I hate putting up crap. It's just not right. As I quote from Disney's Hercules (really should stop listening to the soundtrack on Kotoko) "it's a work of heart". Here, here. Everything that I've ever done with all of my heart and 110% of who I am, I've been happy with. I just might not happy with it later.

I also have a very bad habit of never going back to ideas. which is why I always feel the time-constraint of getting something done. With that in mind, it's no wonder why I've been putting all my time into SL and sewing while my story writing has been non-existant for over a year now. That isn't to say I haven't tried writing in the last year. I will admit that I believe in writer's block. Especially if you sit with either paper or screen in front of you for hours with nothing descent to show for your time. Now if anyone has ever read my work on FFN, my only excuse for my earlier works was that I beginning to write. If you're expecting it to be 100% top quality fanfiction, what do you think I am, a bloody prodigy? No, I'm not a prodigy, I just get lucky. What I can say is that for most part, grammar and spelling are correct in my works. That is the least I can do. I also do get better with time. Problem is that when I get better, I look back at past works and just cringe.

Like in my old fandom of BJT which I still dabble in under a different name. Lady of the Midnight might as well be dead if it wasn't for the fact that I know what's going to happen in the story. Good. I just can't put it into decent combinations of sentences to portray the ideas and the plot for the rest of the world to see. Bad -2. One of the reasons why I've chosen a new name of Tanarra, instead of keeping my old Demona SaDiablo, where possible was because of Lady of the Midnight. After a few years, I've finally got a comeback as to my pen name and the name of one of my main characters in that story. The Blood society follows the matriarchial bloodline. Hence Jaenelle Angelline's bloodline so therefore her daughter's name would be Demona Angelline not SaDiablo. Besides, before Saetan, SaDiablo was not an aristo line. As for the SaDiablo, it is not unheard of for a man in NA society to take his wife's name and I don't see how the Blood Realms would be any different. As for Demona, I swear, if there's anything that makes me want to bang my head against the wall screaming, it would be for the readers to get over the name already. There are worse names out there, I've already explained that I put no thought into names most of the time, plus what are you reading for? The names or the plot? If the names then go find a story that has no plot.

Maybe this is why I don't actually strap myself to a desk and force write the fic. Because of the lack of mature readers. I miss the old AB fandom. There was enough maturity in there to make one want to improve. Getting back to LOTM, I wrote myself into a corner in the beginning with a character too stereotyphical almost a Mary Sue and a bad one at that. So the challenge was writing out of it in a manner that's plausible which I did. Well, more like thought it out. And it's a complicated plot like a real BJT book. But will I get to it? Probably not. Especially not with the work I have to show for nowadays. It becomes quite discouraging if you can't write anything decent for a year where your tone is stale and the sentences don't flow right. But then, sooner or later, all that trouble leads you to what you want to make.

Current Mood: discontent

up to my userpic limits. There had been a number of animated .gifs that I had wanted to make for a while but never got around to till now. I think the worst demonstration of my sense of humour came in the form of the Zuko one. It had been years since I've actually seen that advertisement but I do remember that the three degrees of Wonder were Sparks, Flame, and Fire. Add to a couple weeks ago where a number of people commented that Zuko was at his hottest with the firebending swords...I just couldn't help myself.

In a couple hours I'll be heading to Shanghai. In other words, I really should be sleeping right now but am I? I'm typing this aren't I? So with all this creative energy, you would think I would put it to good use. Pfff, I wish I had that discipline. If I had that dicipline, things might actually get done on time. At the rate I'm going, I should be able to continously update the fanfiction section of SL until I get back home. Then I should have all the resources I'll need for making the new layout plus the two skins of Priestess of Genbu and Oracle & Stone Spirit. I just need to make sure that I'll actually get to work on them because I know me. I have a horrible tendency to just push things to the side. If I had a yen (yes 1 Japanese yen) for every single time I said "I'll do this later" I would have enough to pay my entire tuition.

*sigh* I hate it when I want to do more, because it's more that I'll never get around to to doing. On top of updating SL, there's a one-shot I want to try for Hikitsu/Tomite. Something GK since with all my making an archive, I haven't even submitted in anything either. -_-; Figures.

Current Mood: energetic

I had absolutely no idea how much I had taken thee for granted. Especially in China. Now it's not the fact that people bump into you without so much of an "excuse me", "pardon me", or "I'm sorry" but people grabbing you and following you around like a stalker. Yes, I can understand livelihood and that this is part of their job in order to make commission but what happened to customer service? I've worked in customer service. Heck, I still do. Now if there's one thing that I often don't agree with potential employers is their version of customer service. Pushing sales is one thing but fuck you're not going to be able to sell anything if you piss said customer off by following them around or continuously acting like a 5-year-old by pestering them about buying.

Case in point, my day today and the past two days before. By train, for the past three days I've been going back and forth from Hong Kong to Shen Zhen. Within the closest mall is this large area solely dedicated to fabrics. Now being the avid seamstress that I am, I was in heaven...until I noticed a few slight problems.

One was this bitch who has been following me for all three days that I've gone in there. Doesn't she take a hint? I swear I need to pick up some Cantonese soon and screw the politeness, just quit following me already! Look, you've lost the sale if I don't pay attention but you know what? Following continuously is seriously going to be bad for you in the case that with any other English-speaking buyers I can just warn them about you. Then where's your commission for taking them back to your mistress seamstress? I sound like a brat but three days in there and I say screw trying to be polite. Good thing is that a good number of cloth merchants noticed me telling her off and started telling her off too. Yes, another thing for you to keep in mind dearie, if the cloth merchants dislike you, then you're not getting anywhere near precious potential clients because the merchants want them to buy something and if the clients are too annoyed with you following them that they don't buy anything...do the math.

It wasn't just her but a number of them. Problem number two was of a different swarm: manicurists. Yeesh, I've never been offered to have my nails done by so many people. I suppose the one offer that got to me the most was when one girl pointed to my toes (which have traces of my last polish on them) as she offered her services LOUDLY. ARRG! Hello, if I so cared about my toenails, I think I can manage and two, embarrassing me like that isn't going to endear me into taking your services. Grabbing me I can take but embarrassing me like that...*fuming at memory* I can do my own nails thank you very much bitch!

So note to self:

Current Mood: pissed off

That's how I feel. Unfortunately LJ has yet to put that on their mood selections. I've been allowed to travel across half the globe to see stuff that some will never get the chance to in the capacity I'm doing it at. Yet I don't appreaciate it. I remember the day before I left for Asia, my co-workers (well actually mostly just the new girl) were saying how excited they would be for the trip. Uh-huh. Ri-ight, try worrying about the number of stuff I had to and then we'll see how excited you are.

Sorry for the bitchiness right there but I'm not all that endeared to the newest member of the team at work. Maybe I'm not giving her enough of a chance since I've only known her for two days but she's sending out bad vibes. She's actually working which is a good thing instead of just passing the time but maybe I'm just too sheltered about the world on this one. It was just that after the first hour or so of the shift she asked about breaks...on her second day. Just to let you know, she worked a seven-hour shift on her first day so this has already been covered.

Anyway, it was just the tone of her voice when she asked about them. I suppose what really ticked me off about her was when she said "I hope we make a lot of tips." I know tips can often be used to make ends meet but girl, you work in a coffee shop and that day there were three of us, so does splitting three-ways deduct in your calculations? Not to mention there's the little fact that you're the newbie...if you keep up that kind of attitude, you're lucky if the people you work with will leave you a big enough share. It's just that, within a coffee shop, unlike restaurants, you can't really expect tips. They come and go. Heck, you're just lucky you don't work the evening shifts where 50 cents is considered a good haul.

On the other hand, I can't really point fingers since tips are what keeps my library well stocked. But if it came down to it that we no longer got tips, I could always find another way to supplement my book-buying. I suppose it was just the tone of her voice. Like she expected it to be written in stone...that kind of arrogance. Or maybe I'm just thinking too much on the matter.

Getting back to being ungrateful, I have sincerely tried to enjoy myself. It's just not working. Maybe my problem is that I think too much. Or maybe too much in the wrong areas.

Current Mood: crappy

is a rare commodity for me these days. I feel as if I should be doing something. I have website work piling up as I type this. There are the fanfics that I've quite haven't so abandoned. I would like to get my Takiko costume done for Animethon in July. So...what's my problem? At the moment the most I'm doing is downloading season two Avatar episodes so that when I get back home I can share them with Jules. And by technicality standards, Elda is doing most of the work. I'm just the one poking my nose around in her system, trying to figure out what to do.

From the little notebook (one of those small ones from Sanrio. I might not be crazy about Hello Kitty, but I seem to have an unhealthy addiction to Chococat) that I use to keep track of work for Silver Light, I have at least ten fics to archive plus the links and main pages to update. Then there's searching for Genbu Kaiden fanart like I promised myself that I would during my spare time in my vacation. Yet here I am staring at the notebook and staring at the screen...useless. If there's anything in the world I hate feeling it's useless. That or helpless. Anything _less.

Current Mood: disappointed

I'm back to where I started. Elda (my laptop) crashed so she had to be restored again. But because of my own lack of knowledge when it comes to computer systems, all my work had been erased. I think I've lived through one too many computer crashes if I'm not screaming out for blood yet. On the bright side, most of my website work is stored online, and since I tend to leave my old stuff online as well...pfewf. I still have to get into the habit of backing up Elda's memory regularly for I don't believe I will always be this lucky.

Came back to Hong Kong from Beijing today. For all those people who earn their living through sewing, I have new found respect for you. How can anyone spend hours sewing? Especially those who sew completely by hand?

I asked Lee once about why the world likes to work around me. I swear, every single time I'm away the internet for even so much as a day, the fics I've been waiting to update are updated sometimes completed, my inbox is full, forums are filled with replies, etc. Oh and to make things more interesting, I'm on the other side of the planet, 14 hours ahead of my usual timezone so while I'm waiting for people to start talking about the latest episode of an obsession (Avatar, for example), I'm snapped into reality "oh yeah, it's still Friday morning back home." *facepalm*

Current Mood: indescribable